well after the frantic weekend and getting my previous commitments done…l decided to do some research and see what last years Altaroma looked like … maybe not a good idea, as it sent me into a complete panic! Its the REAL DEAL~ and all I could think was OMG I’m not good enough for this show – I need to step this up BIG time! Every insecurity I have about EVERYTHING came up… thankfully I have a pretty strong spiritual foundation, which I connect with as much as I remember through the day, but especially set time to do so in the AM…bringing this insecurity to that sacred time, I was given 2 ideas to ponder – making vs. creating, and form vs.content. Making= trying to be other than I am, its figuring and doing my design from a place of thinking it should look a certain way for a certain person -or place – its the thought – what do they think? what will they think, how do I look, how does it look? how can I get that, or manipulating the circumstances to “look good”. same with form = the physical thing, the circumstances, the outside. Creating is allowing something new into my consciousness – content is what I am being, loving, trusting,accepting, peaceful – this is the place I want to connect to – to allow the flow of life , the essence of life to live me – and if its living me, its living my life and everything I do would be this energy, essence, quality. In all the unknowingness and insecurity I want to hold on to this as authentically as I can for this collection (and for my life ) Lets see how it goes:)
and that brings me back to the collection… have I done anything physically for the collection ….. NOOOOOOO!!!!!!
I have done designs and been creative, I have another order of my camo vests going out to Gilda’s in Boston – a boutique I have been selling to for years. I have researched and purchased some amazing embellishments, pheasant feathers, pink feathered fabric and also while doing this bumped into someone that can help me develop the lace I need for the other collection…but thats another story! Big studio day tomorrow and already can’t wait to wake up and get in there !!!! Inspiration is on the same theme- Native American for sure an influence and when I brought this up to one of my girlfriends she laughed and said that I could play “half breed” at the fashion show(whaaa???) by Cher... and honestly Cher is a huge inspiration for this collection, but who is my muse for this collection – I have mentioned Talitha Getty before – she has been a muse for me for years, but i think my muse is me – or the me I dream of being – the girl that’s traveling, laughing, loving and believes in magic…..