as you know, I am doing my best to bring more authenticity to my life and how I am living….and I think anytime that I want to make a change, events come up as opportunities to strengthen that muscle of change – like – are you really wanting this or are just saying it because it sounds good to say – I got nailed this week!!!! so busted! A friend wanted me to get on this reality TV show – and I thought – well could be fun and good for biz – it fit in somewhat with my branding and lets explore it – so I had a skype call with casting – a totally unknown situation for me – I do not love skype – its feels so strange and I feel really self-conscious  – why is there a little picture of me in the corner? am I suppose to look at that or what? anyway = I just thought I was going to have a conversation with her and she wanted to see my personality – wrong … It was a full on interview, she was prompting me on stuff and I was so fake and so bizarre to myself I felt like I was going to throw up when I got off the call.  I couldn’t believe , how I could go from being real to being what I thought somebody wanted me to be to get something – to get what? I didn’t even know if I wanted it? (btw turned it down) but life challenged me and I got see it – and see it quick and be forgiving to myself as I would encourage a friend and move on.  I love it – I love it that life called me on what it is I am saying I wanted and gave me the perfect situation to strengthen my muscles!

So now to the fashion part of the week! Everything got rearranged ! and its so rearranged I know its the Light rearranging my priorities – in this change = rather than be upset or trying to control it to stay the way I thought is was going to be – I just let it all go – because so much got switched around and I am still waiting to hear on things I just know that its the Light just stopping me – and once I just was there with it all these new ideas and opportunities flooded into my consciousness.  I really cannot believe it – so many things are here and I didn’t see them. It took me to have some apparent losses and to have things not move as fast as I would like to see how much is right here, how much is given to me.

So I am still knocking myself off and I am thrilled with it! It looks amazing and will so free me up from working the vintage lace – which can be frustrating – doing production on one of a kind pieces and then realizing there’s stains on things we missed catching, holes in the lace etc.  Trying to explain to the boutiques that the lace may not be exactly as they ordered and explain why.  I found some fabric that dyes, looks and feels like vintage – it is less expensive and I can guarantee  that they will all be the same YAY! I  have invested much in my NYC show and would like to think this next one will be payday So with that freeing me up – I have a couple other collections I want to do – I saw some opportunities here  – one of the ways I have always designed is if I want it, I know my customer will want it – btw – this is how I feel about the Rome collection completely – I want every piece – but I also see  a couple other gaps in different markets that I am exploring — and will be testing it out in the boutique and website.

Just want to share something from these guys that encouraged me to start this blog and to be real and expose myself with my clients – they also are helping me with branding and are really an inspiration in how they honestly care about what they are doing hdfmagazine.com